also to add context the pills i used to take were for adhd because the health care and education system solves all problem kids with shoving pills down their throats. when i was a kid they would toss me around on different pills and test things out and i felt like a lab rat. all of them had some bad side effect but there was one that i still cant think about without panicking. i felt like i was a prisoner in my own body. its genuinely the only thing i can think of that scares me. i had to stare at the ground because whenever i looked up it felt like bugs were crawling on my eyes, i couldnt stomache food and lost a shit load of weight and i couldnt really feel a lot of anything. despite all it did when they handed me those pills id take them. not that i wanted to take them but it almost became like mechanical. like i knew they would make me suffer but i just couldnt care. sorry for the rant but that shit still works me up when i think about it.

Minty I mean if you really want to tin-foil hat it, big pharma and its tendency to prescribe pills (almost nonchalantly) as the general solution to even the most minor ailments is to use the public to test drugs. And now we have a problem like Americans' general addiction to painkillers (Advil...) and their rapidly declining health.

Cayhr honestly considering how many pills they put me on it wouldnt suprise me that were just testing shit out.

Minty It's really disturbing how addicted people are to prescription medications. My family goes out of its way to not use them unless absolutely necessary, and I think we are significantly healthier as a result, lol.

Cayhr i straight up hate pills. ive straight up refused the good pain pills when i broke my wrist. my dad had an addiction for them and that effectively put me off them.